The Best Investment For Myself And For My Future

The Best Investment For My Life

By Jan Tijmes

Background:

Why am I investing in myself? Why do I choose a life that's so different than most? What do I see as the best investment for my future?

Well, it all started in 2005. I was drinking and driving on a Colorado highway at midnight, when I fell asleep at the wheel, flipped the car across the interstate, and ended up in the hospital for a few weeks, unable to walk for about half a year.

I was an engineer at the time making great money and living in one of the most natural places in the world. According to everyone I knew, I had it made. I was living a dream life snowboarding, hiking, kayaking, and writing music in my free time, and I was well on my way to a successful career as an environmental, civil, and agricultural engineer.

But I also had no clue who I really was. I was living in a fog, living other people's dreams, and floating in and out of depression for as long as I could remember. I had absolutely no real life skills, such as how to make a relationship work or how to maintain my health. I had a horrible drinking habit, I had strong attachments to emotions, and I had a big ego.

Life Gives Us Lessons

That accident gave me a lot of time to think about who I was and what I wanted for myself before I died. I would spend hours in my hospital bed writing about everything I wanted to accomplish in the coming years. After all, I had crushed my left leg and amassed $145,000 in legal and hospital fees almost overnight. I wasn't too chipper on my circumstances, yet I had a feeling that I survived for a reason, and I intended to find out what it was.

Investing In Personal Development

6 months after the accident I found a couple of personal development courses to help me remove some mental blockages and take some control back of my life. And so began the journey of investing in my future...

I fell in love with personal development. Immediately I fell in love with the way I began feeling even days after beginning a 3 month program. I began investing most of my evenings outside of work developing myself and relearning positive behavior.

At the time, I wanted to become a public speaker, to learn how to coach people, to write positive music, and to make a lot of money and retire big within a few years. I had goals that were fairly common for positive people in society.

But as my development grew deeper, so did my goals and vision for the future. No longer did I see money as a goal, but rather as the reward for accomplishing a newfound passion of helping others with their lives.

I began to see a future of inspired and awakened people, but I had no idea how to make that future a reality.

Craving Wisdom

As time went on, I realized I wanted more and more. I wanted to fix all of me, and I wanted to heal the world. It felt like the more things I cleared out of me, the lighter and younger I became.

I asked myself, "What would it take to be Jesus Christ? What would it take to be the Dalai Lama? And if I had their abilities to heal many people, bring nations together, and teach others peaceful ways of living, how would this look like for me?"

It was clear that I needed to invest more in myself. I had tried doing it on my own, but I couldn't seem to do it positively. I would always bottom out and exhaust myself again and again. So, I would need to heal myself more and clean myself up more, but my way didn't always work. In effect, I would need to find a group of positive people with a strong vision for the future that worked with mine to help guide me towards my goals.

What I really wanted was peace. Deep inner peace. I wanted to give to others what I myself didn't have. And it was that sensation that drove me towards helping others.

Somewhere I read that if you don't know how to have vision for the future, help someone who has a great vision. So I started hopping from teacher to teacher, group to group testing out their visions and letting mine grow. But I really wanted stability in my growth.

Levels Of Understanding

I found out that there are levels to life, levels of perception. Each of our energies that make each of us up is unique. And our perception of the world depends on our soul's maturity as well as our environmental and genetic upbringing. So for each person, their perception is unique.

I noticed that my perception was changing by the week. But it was a challenge for me to get past my ego- to get out of my mind. And it still is! It took me awhile to realize I didn't have all the answers. It was hard for me to find modesty and humility. Without the right education throughout my life, I didn't know how to be healthy. And it took me awhile to notice that my body was really exhausted deep down by the way I was (mis)using it. And all that thinking was getting me into a lot of trouble (somewhere I read that 80% of a body's energy can be used up each day by unnecessary thinking).

Our bodies get used to the levels of stress we put on them, like building a tolerance with drugs, so we don't always have a clear picture of our personal health, until we feel what it's like to really be healthy. Every now and again, I would get a feeling of extreme relaxation and health, and it would make me want it that much more. It would give me perspective to realize that I still had so much to learn.

And the more I working on myself, the more clearly I felt the difference between healthy and unhealthy.

I've noticed that my vision of what I see for my future is becoming clearer as my health gets stronger and my body and mind gets cleaner. I can feel real results from the work I am putting into myself.

I See, Therefore, I Know It's A Possibility

I see a future of amazing possibilities. I see a future where we're learning positive lessons about real life- lessons about how to relate to one another, how to be creative, how to excel at our goals, and how to live as long as we want to using natural living techniques.

I see nations in peace talks, communities supporting one another, happy children and adults playing, information being shared for the benefit of all, relaxed and peaceful people helping one another in collaboration, and people following natural laws of living that make them self-disciplined, self-healing, orderly, and blissful.

I see clean water, air, and land, and people who care for the planet. I see people healing with powerful energy. I see the right leaders in the right positions. And I see them leading nations in ways we have not yet seen before.

And the interesting thing to me is that a few years ago I would have never thought these things were possible. My dreams were quite small at the time, and I didn't expect to live very long.

The Steps

So how can I help to bring about positive change?

All I know is that I need to be the change. I need to speak for myself, and for me, I need to know confidently how to heal any negative emotion or disease inside of me. I need to be able to guide somebody to higher forms of themselves without their negativity affecting me. I need to have the strength of an army inside of me. I need to have powerful connection to an unlimited source of healing energy. I need to support and be supported by a large group of people all serving similar goals and needs for the future working together for a common good.

And it all starts with investing in me, focusing on me. It's called the "selfish" stage of personal development. It's the first stage. And once I master this stage, I'll move on to the next stage- helping other people. Then the next, and the next, and the next...

And I've noticed the answers slowly coming from higher and higher sources. Messages increase with a person's purity and health, and now I crave to hear the highest quality messages as if they are being whispered from God directly into my ear. And that comes with consistently investing in myself from a humble and sincere place.

I do know that this future is positive. And I do know that day will come. The question is when will it come, and how will it happen?

I believe a system exists that can educate people in daily living, so we can work a job without getting exhausted, and we can have a family and never have to raise our voices in anger.

And I've learned that the only way I can bring this change is for me to invest in myself, invest in the future, and be the change for all of us. It's been a real challenge for me at times, but I always get glimpses of the reward that keeps me moving forward. And I have found this to be true for everyone who invests in them self. It's a way of life that always has you moving to the carrot being dangled in front of you. And sometimes, life gives you a break and lets you taste the carrot, but you realize you're eating the best carrot cake you've ever put your lips on :)